Saturday, February 03, 2007
love life after sch life. read on?
so long never post here liao...
sigh.
sch life.
my last sem of sch.
so far ok la... excluding the fact that 304 module is a bitch (and it's core Auditing module some more!) and 306 is so project and presentation filled (and it's tutor-assigned groups so i'm in this group of over enthu "superpower" overpowering group).
sigh.
but i'm attending all my lessons so far, except for a guest lect.
3 day wk passes so fast every wk.
just had a tutorial presentation last wed and we needed to include a game to get the class to participate, but must also relate to topic. so we ended up doing a close bidding game. reminded me of dawn's bbq. but the group of funny guys spoil mkt and bid showhand right from the start and spoiled the whole game. lol...
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anyway, tt's not the main thing i wanna say.
(arghhh!!!! tt's why i hate signing on to msn. i should hv signed off or appeared offline. now grpmate bugging me about presentation qns which i have no idea how to do tt's why i didn't volunteer to take tt part. *grumbles*)
back to my pt.
wad i wanna say is...
I don't think I'll ever get attached easily.
wait ah. it's not tt i'm too quiet or things like tt. of course that plays a part.
but what i'm saying is even if I do know some guys and do talk to them...
maybe can attribute it to my laziness.
sometimes it gets sian and all. like you'll go out more often to meet up, etc?
i guess you'll have to love the person tt much to want to meet up almost everyday.
and i'm not sure if i'll find a person i'll really love.
yrs ago i posted an entry somewhere where i claim that if i ever fall in love, it'll be hard for me to get out cos i'm tt sort of person. but i think it's not true now. dunno why.
well ok, maybe tt still holds true. but the question is whether i can actually love someone tt much.
in the past i used to wish for someone by my side, but now... hmm... I get thoughts that I'm still fine on my own (except during sickening times like PA). Dunno if you can attribute it to my manga/anime obsession (but then shoujo manga makes you feel like wishing to fall in love/for a prince charming) or what. But it's nice having unattached friends around. maybe it's because i have more unattached friends now. no offense, but it's sometimes quite irritating when you can't date your friend cos she has a date with her bf.
i dunno. i honestly dunno. and i'm reminded of what shan said about her choosing to be attached again after her previous relationship. truthfully, i was quite surprised/shocked at that time. i was thinking... "if you feel that way, why still accept so soon?" now, i'm thinking tt i may hv done tt too.
it's hard to find someone who fits perfectly into what you want, someone who understands you really well, someone who accepts you for who you are, someone whom you can share things with.
i'm not confident of ever meeting that someone, so i'm not sure if i'll ever fall in love.
maybe i'm expecting too much. like maybe a little love is enough, like tt you don't have to love someone THAT much for it to be counted as love.
but if a little love is love, can that little love last for life?
himitsu @ 1:01 AM.
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