Thursday, September 30, 2004
Allow me to add something! I really wanna cry now...
Matantei Loki Ragnarok has ended! The manga of course!!! I just read the last chapter of it(which of course not out in comic form yet. so many chap not out in comic form yet) The ending was so disappointing! esp to an ardent LokiMayura supporter like me! Mayura did lose her memory when Loki "died". She returned to the detective agency after Loki defeated Baldur(killing Odin and Urd and i guess since the Norms are 3 in 1, skuld and verdandi might hv disppoeared too), Mayura din remember anything, but she felt a strong sense of familiarity. just then, a snake slither by, then she saw a dog barking, then kakusei Loki appeared behind her. he smiled and said: "welcome to my detective agency!"
and that's how it ended. ARGH!!!! Why?! Why?! i really wanted Mayura to remember everything and realised Loki is a god. Jashin even. But then it turned out lidat. Disappointing! Heart-breaking! Though it's very obvious Loki likes Mayura by the end of the series.
sob... doushite??!!! I HATE ENDINGS!!! I HATE ANY KIND OF ENDINGS, EVEN HAPPY ONES!!! COS ENDINGS ARE TOO FINALE. IT'S LIKE DYING...
himitsu @ 10:58 PM.
added support zone to sidebar... but i can't think of what or who i actually support that i can put it up, and AR ended last wk.
As for SG Idol, Maia is cool... thou i kinda think her voice not very strong. she shouldn't pick songs christina aguilera sings... cos christina's voice so powerful that i tend to compare maia to e real singer and obviously her voice loses quite badly to christina. but well, i'm not the pro at singing and voices. so my opinion may not be right. But she has ATTITUDE and STYLE, and she's a single mum!
Sylvester... i din esp like him at first. but watched today's one and decided to support him. he is UNIQUE. as in he's very singapore flavoured. if he wins, it's fine. cos if he goes perform in other countries' idols, he's reali Singaporean! Brings out singapore style. that's how i feel la... his voice not bad too. on top of that, why so many pple supporting him? guess it's his bad boy looks/style. i admit it. yeah... his bad boy style of dressing etc is attractive. like they always say... girls are attracted to bad boys. but that's just his appearance... his character seems like the nice nice sort. haha~
himitsu @ 10:02 PM.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
as i've said, i'll try to curb my incessant(to others but not to me) anime/manga ramblings. but philosophical stuff like those in my previous entry (if u haven't read it, read it><) is subjective to inspiration and my feelings right then and there when typing. very hard!!! haha~ just wanted to add something i wanted to but forgot to say the last time... about disillusionment... i dunno if any of u know this, or if i even look like one to think this way... but ever since a few years back, i've started to believe that NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. reali quite strongly believe in this. nothing. absolutely nothing in this world lasts forever. relationships, love, fame, status, happiness, sadness etc etc anything u can think of, nothing lasts. they come, they go, they fade, they die, and something else new comes along.
tangerine: you can love or hate someone so deeply for a moment, but how long will it last? a few years down, the feeling starts to fade... who knows when it'll disappear? How do you hold on to that moment where love or happiness is at its peak?
yuki: baka. you're asking too many rhetorical qns...
tangerine: but really... as pple always say, time passes, things change. so what can you do? that's why we marvel at those rare still-as-romantic-as-ever old couples right? YUKI... you're a famous prize-winning romance novelist. so, enlighten me!
yuki: my stories all end tragically. what's the pt of asking me?
tangerine: this is kinda depressing. sometimes, this sappy line just pops out in my head, but the more i think about it, the more i believe it's true. and i'm the very sentimental and reminiscent type, so i'll get sadder, esp when happy events have passed me by. and there's this saying that tells us to look forward to tmr, or a new beginning... but don't they realised that this new tmr doesn't last too?
yuki: ...
tangerine: i hope what i'm saying doesn't cause you to go break up with shu-chan... pls don't!!! even believing in that, i still live like others... like there's nothing wrong. humans don't harp on negative beliefs cos well, they can't afford to if they wanna survive, and surviving is a basic human instinct. so they go into this self-delusional/self-deceiving/disillusioned state... or maybe it's just because there's such a tiny but powerful thing called hope?
yuki: you're babbling like that stupid brat. only difference is that u babble about philosophical stuff. similarity is that it's just as crappy and worthless talk, a waste of time.
tangerine: ok... great. am i talking nonsensical stuff here? i apologise for taking up your time. hmph! why not someone enlighten me?! T_T
himitsu @ 9:49 PM.
Monday, September 27, 2004
still doing my lit essay... wad a drag. but gonna type out soon. hope i din write out of pt.
up to now, Odours Of Chrysanthemums is still my fav story out of the whole book. i dunno why... somehow feel more for it. the darkness, decaying atmosphere, the way liz reflects on her relationship with walter at the end, the way it ended with a feeling of helplessness... what can i say... at least it evokes feelings. not like the rest where i'm like "ok... so end of story. chey!". hee~
rem e lit tutor Neil Murphy say 20th century story authors almost all believe that Man is always alone. born alone, live alone, die alone. even thou they may go into relationships, but at the very end, they are still alone. individuals.
kinda sad and sombre, but somehow i feel that it may true. afterall, one can never be someone else, look into another's mind, act like another and so on... and no matter how much they love each other, it's still 'i am i, you are you'...
haha~ did i make it sound depressing?
damn, i shouldn't be talking bt this and listening to this FB song... kinda sad... ^^ oh and do i sound philosophical below: (the purple words...)?
besides, yuki always ends his novels with a sad ending too... ne? Yuki-san?
Yuki: "happy endings are crappy and disillusional."
tangerine: "maybe. but humans struggle for some kind of disillusion so that they can carry on. everyone would prefer to know of some kind of happy ending. and they want to believe in it. they hope."
Yuki: "pathetic."
tangerine: "maybe. and perhaps i'm also one of the disillusioned idiots out there. but i will it this way..."
Yuki: "..."
tangerine: "perhaps you're turning into one too... with the help of shu-chan. haha!"
Yuki: "'chi."
himitsu @ 8:22 PM.
Friday, September 24, 2004
BIG FB NEWS for ee and jye if they interested!!!
After finding out that akito is a girl, there comes more shocks: The curse isn't natural. It actually is not once born, u r cursed. at least for kureno, shigure, hatori and ayame and ritsu.
here's the link for summary of latest happenings. really shocking and sad.
it continues from when kureno tells tooru akito's a woman.
FB chapter 98
This chap is not out in manga yet, only in official mag.
Anyway, my fav FB song is the opening song, For Fruits Basket. u know, if u don't watch the jap version, you won't get to hear the vocal version of Serenade which is totally nice!!! The songs from FB all very nice! Today just heard Sorairo for the first time. God... it's a very beautiful song too! Ritsuko Okazaki's voice is so clear and beautiful! sing FB songs very sutiable. so sad she passed away liao...
But FB songs e lyrics always very beautiful and sorta relates to the story. something about being sad and hurt but still walking on, being strong. love it!
here's the translated lyrics for LATER HALF of Sorairo. NOT full song lyrics:
A suffering heart,
A heart-breaking night,
Nonetheless, I keep my belief
In my fragile hopes and wishes
I keep bearing, I keep standing.
Even if my tears fall, I'm fine.
It'll rain furiously
Everything flows away
Living is painful,
But at the same time, it's beautiful.
I'm passing over this place now,
To see your smile again.
Through joy and sadness,
I will embrace these hands.
See? doesn't it somehow fit the feelings of the jyuunishi?
himitsu @ 4:21 PM.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
ne... chao surprised not all characters died in X. but i still cried. lucky subaru din die!!! haha~
biz law presentation was ok today. lucky double checked ans with shan. typed out very clearly and logically. only first part she asked so many qns about how i know it's an innominate term. anyhow ans which is not gd enuff. she then asks class, ans still no good. then she explain, but afterall, i don't know how to put down in words. die... hafta correct e slides... but also lucky my group is like individual do own stuff. as in you sit down and click the slides and talk all by yourself. i expected someone to click then e person presenting stand and talk. haha~ lucky! cos sit down u don't feel so conspicuous. less nervous. can hide your hands, can lean on table. yeah!
just watch Sg Idol unsung heroes! so damn funny!!! The worst one was e lady who sang do-re-mi. funniest is when they showed the audition got 1 guy who din noe where to puts his hands? i laff like mad!!! laff so loudly and so hard that tears came to my eyes! god. his left hand helped to open the pocket for his right hand to go in!! open, put in, take out, open, put in, take out... endless. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! he's as funny as the careless whisper guy!
tangerine: "na yuki...aitsu wa kokkei deshou?! hahahaha!!!"
yuki: "right. can't believe they dare to go join this competition. honto ni baka desu." (switches TV off)
tangerine: "haha! but if there was a Japan Idol, shu-chan will do very well, agree?" (smiles)
shuichi: "tangerine-san! arigatou!!!" (big teary grateful touched eyes)
yuki: "hmph. i don't agree. how can someone with ZERO TALENT win?!"
shuichi: "YUKIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!" (looks very hurt and starts sobbing)
tangerine: "poor shu-chan. but i still love his songs. and ryu-chan's too. Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper rocks! well then, i'll leave you two to your lover's quarrel. ja!"
tangerine stops at the door again. she turns and glare accusingly at the two lovers.
tangerine: "by the way, i don't see more KISSING SCENES that you promised me yesterday!!! WHY?! DOUSHITE?! I re-read book 12 but still no additional kissing scenes! Kiss more!!!!"
yuki and shuichi: (sweatdrop) "don't blame us. blame murakami-sensei."
tangerine: "fine! i'll go find my yuki now..."
shuichi: "EH? your 'yuki'??!!!"
tangerine: "don't worry. i won't snatch your lover. i'm going to my souma yuki now. besides, i don't have the capacity to snatch your yuki. he loves you too much. you and only you. sigh..." (disppointed look)
tangerine walks away, shouting: "SOUMA-KUUUUUNN!!!! Anata wa doko desuka??!!!"
Conclusion: tangerine-san is EXTREMELY crazy and wu liao. ^___^
himitsu @ 9:30 PM.
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
God... watch X e later half episodes... can really cry at the end of every episode esp the last few. The whole anime so sad... people just die cos of their destinies. sob...
and i wonder... how come CLAMP can come out with so many different manga series when they haven't complete a lot? huh?! they just leave old ones hanging and new ones keep surging up. my god! how can they?! i was so shocked when i learned that they haven't finis X! And what about my favourite Lawful Drugstore??!!! I'm yaoi-crazy right now ley! And they only keep drawing Tsubasa and xxx. So unfair!!!! i wanna e drugstore story!!!! love xu3 tang2!!!!!!!!! (dunno his jap name la...)
hmph!
sob sob. shall watch last ep of X now. prepare to cry again.haiz... then later watch the movie also cry again. but i know everyone will die... except kamui maybe. muahahahaha!!!! sob.
yuki eiri: "mood swings so bad ah? 1 min laff, 1 min cry. like siao lidat. baka."
tangerine: "gomen! gomen! but you may be right. i gg crazy soon..."
shuichi: "nani?! tangerine-san, are you okay? Is there anything i can do to help?" (look of concern)
tangerine: "arigatou, shu-chan! you're really nice!" (looks super grateful & touched)
yuki eiri(looks at shuichi): "you had better not help her. with your craziness, you'll only make her more crazy. another baka!"
shuichi: "Yukiiiiiiiii!!!! How can you say that! And don't call me baka!" (starts crying)
tangerine: SHU-chan!!! pls don't cry! i'm so sorry!!! ir's all my fault you got scolded by yuki. pls don't cry... (starts sobbing too... for shuichi)
shuichi and tangerine hug each other and bawl loudly
yuki(vein on forehead twitching): "STOP CRYING!!!! I'm trying to write here! SHUTTUP! GET OUT! BAKA!!!!! And stop hugging each other!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
shuichi: "eh? yuki's jealous?" (stops crying and brightens)
tangerine: "looks like it. hahahahaha!!! so sweet~~~ (laughs madly) here! return shu-chan to you..." (picks shuichi up and places him on yuki's lap)
tangerine waves goodbye and turns to leave. she stops before closing the door behind her, turning back to wink: "remember to kiss more! more! more!" (closes door)
yuki and shuichi: "..."
yuki: "hentai. another crazy yaoi fangirl."
shuichi: "i think she's really going crazy. poor thing!"
yuki: "yup. she'd definitely crazy. fancy typing such a long nonsensical... dialogue(??) here. but honestly, i don't mind granting her wish about kissing more... (giving shuichi an evils smirk)..."
tangerine: "oh shit. i'm really crazy. i'm already crazy!!!!!" (shakes her head and sighs, giving up on herself)
himitsu @ 9:08 PM.
changed the music... to Laputa's main theme. never watch before, just thought music quite nice. but only the first part nice. after that screeching (to me it screeches. wonder what instrument is that) comes on... spoils everything. but nvrmind, will still leave it on. will change asap.
can't stand brass orchestra music/band music. SO LOUD AND NOISY!!!! cannot stand it when my sis blows her trumpet. god. save me! i only like string orchestra and of course, piano music. but must be playing pieces i recognise and like la! if not wil only put me to sleep. haha~
was thinking... should change the occupation written in my side bar. "full time acc student, part time slacker" to "full time slacker, part time acc student". guilty. guilty. guilty.
keep reading manga. one day can finish 3+ books if i want to. hard to control. only stop reading when i can use com. hahahahahaha~ argh... and yay! my laptop is here. but gotta ask my bro set up for me, and sign up for internet line. still hafta wait... sigh...
himitsu @ 3:31 PM.
Friday, September 17, 2004
think i exercise alot at home during the hols. today spent half the day walking up and down, here and there in the living room again. dunno why! comes naturally to me... even when i listening to music. crazy!
legs very tired now...
last night slept at around 4am, my latest so far, doing wad? just to complete my newest gravi fanfic. yes, i'm really crazy. everytime i read this fic of mine, i really think it's SUPER FLUFFY! so sappy! too mushy! hahaha.
but my funny fics are usually more well-received. sob... just proves that i'm reali crazy cos the fic i write too crazy, too hilarious. hee~ i'm most proud of 'Tea Time Chat'!
himitsu @ 10:15 PM.
Monday, September 13, 2004
hmm... last sat went for project discussion. surprised that Shiling also in my IT project group... ha~ tot only same biz law group. always see her with Athena, so i tot they'll always stick together. surprise, surprise... then meena and lidya forever teasing me! hmph. if u guys dunno, i hardly speak during discussion one... duh... pple always say all the stuff i wanna say liao, so... well, that day, after not speaking and just listening(like any true blue introvert would do), i said one sentence: "Can we assume this and that and not concentrate so much on research since the marks allocation neva state research, only state the diff application of IT skills we learn? that means we shld conc on the excel, access etc, and not research on the products."
yeah... then they agreed and meena and lidya started the teasing: "Oh... you just say one thing and it really clears all our doubts... when u say something, it indicates that our discussion is gg in wrong direction and u're correcting us". haha~ i obviously screamed: "NO! That's not it!"
but when i spoke again later, meena starts it again: "We're doing something wrong here!"
Argh...
makes me wonder how i got the aka "rubbish". who's the one who gave me that aka? harh? harh?! but i agree i speak lotsa rubbish la... only that maybe can pass this nick to lidya... she really say so weird stuff, totally offtrack, i always wanna laugh. then i oso think meena like a mum taking care of her little child, lidya. cos she's always chiding lidya for her nonsense. but honestly, lidya is more of an introvert too, and she doesn't looks like one who's always saying weird stuff. ^^
IT and biz law group seems ok... only OB... i feel weird. did i mention that there's a gal from same GP class as me in my OB group? anyway, OB still got this interview project. haiz... shld hv joined the SC gals group. regret! regret~
ooh yarh... sat oso went for Watzart! event held at Excelsior Hotel. Nice, but ex! don't think i'll ever attend again. only go once for the experience. best part was the grafitti area where anyone can draw on the sheets of mahjong paper put up on the wall. There's this girl and her whole bunch of frens making so much noise. her frens all pushing her to draw. And woah... she drew so well!!!! just a marker and in a few minutes, she drew all the characters from P.O.T very very nicely with clear expressions! very cute and looks like the real manga! She filled up many mahjong papers with diff situations, like one with the group in tennis outfit, the other with the group partying. she also dream FMA character. Cool! So talented!!!!
photos:
POT
POT2
POT3
another drawing
himitsu @ 8:27 PM.
Friday, September 10, 2004
went for pasta for dinner today... but chose wrong pasta... creamy and spicy... made me get gastric! so pain! couldn't do anything much! no mood to do anything! argh... sorry guys... so sao xing... ><
but hearing dawn talk bt SMU, i'm glad i didn't go there. Their style is totally not for me la... prefer my sch life now as it is... but well, we'll all have fun in one way or another! So, no regrets! no complains!
not gg for econs tut tmr. sian la... just gg to meet up for project work. sian...
next sat go clubbing? very ma fan ley... and no money... haiz
oh yarh. laysh, dawn... got read "Master Negi Magi" manga pple... here's an anime screenshot of the class. i would prefer hearing their voices thou... and asuna doesn't look as pretty in the anime as in the manga. eyes one blue one green... weird...
MasterNegiMagi
himitsu @ 10:50 PM.
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Yay~ mission was successful today! snuck and blended into class when they came out of seminar room. walked with them to the IT lab and took that stupid quiz. bleh... 20 questions... any how click. heck care the quiz manz... average mark was 84, but i only got 75. haha. 15 qns right only. hahaha~ i'm an IT-idiot.
but since it's successful, may actually think of doing it again. cos lect is reali boring. stone and sit til butt so pain.
lalala~
i wanna hear the song "All I Want for Christmas is You". reali wanna hear it! i'll try to find it!
hols are gonna be sianz... got biz law essay to write, lit essay to write (both around 1000 words), groupwork, projectwork.
SIGH... come, sigh with me... SIGH
blogspot goes wrong sometimes. irritating! stupid! files published 0%... 0%... 0%... argh!!!!!
himitsu @ 10:18 PM.
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
haiz... OB groupwork is IDIOTIC! Make us get together EVERY WK to discuss and present ONE question per group. i mean, can't they let us do ONE WHOLE TUTORIAL and get it over and done with once and for all?! Stupid! Make me stay back every monday when i can go home at 1030... hafta stay and listen to the lousy econs lecturer(husband and wife so similar). irritating! childish lect! keep saying "keep quiet ok? you only talk when i ask u to talk!" siao... why does he bother? sob... i wanna go home at 1030!!!!
yesterday during lect... biz law and econs... wasn't listening at all. laysh and i kept toking and toking and toking. nothing to do... den i was reading manga. haha. and yes... was trying hard to suppress my laughter but failed. thank goodness laysh was there so i din look that crazy. cos pple can tink it's due to some joke laysh said. there's one part i couldn't stop laffing... laff so hard tears came to my eyes! But last bk mah... so muz finis. but finis oreadi i was so sad... cos no more to read liao. gravitation is so touching!!! ending so sweet and touching!!! thou should hv more kisses!!!! reali wanted to cry... kept reading over and over again. come home still read and whine that "finish already!!! nothing more to read!!!" then i reali cried... a bit la... haha~
still reading it today thou. god... no wonder my manga always so "used". cos i read and read and read one... haha~ but that makes it worth the money rite?
sigh... actually wanna self declare holiday AGAIN tmr. but i jus realised IN HORROR that tmr got online quiz. how to skip? maybe i skip first 2 hours which is lect... meaning sitting in that hard chair stoning... then sneak and blend into the class when they go for lab session in the later 1 to 2 hrs... dunno can work not. must consider carefully... hmm... tonight then decide. ^__^
fri where to go for dinner? long time no eat pasta from pastamania, black pepper steak, fish and chips, blah blah... marche. but too ex! no money...
himitsu @ 3:36 PM.
Thursday, September 02, 2004
i'm a slacker. a super duper big slacker. argh... so guilty.
but i do like uni life better. thou the subjects i hv to take are more difficult. or mayb eit's jus cos i've got lotsa free time for this sem. dunno...
guilty...
long time no go town. long time no play mahjong. long time no meet dawn.
haiiz...
just tot of adding more pics... realised blog become v FB... so here's the other 'Yuki' i lurve:
muz mention: he reminds me of sanzo from GS. blond hair, smokes like dunno wad, mean, unfriendly, words sting like hell... yeah... that kind of cool guy. ^^
himitsu @ 4:39 PM.
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
just decided to write this suddenly. My individual SUPPORT ZONE. random pple/things/etc i support. Well, u guys shld support wad i support, cos wad i support is always good, nya? Hahahaha!
SUPPORT ZONE
1) Amazing Race: Brandon & Nicole
Thou they almost got eliminated today, which got me so scared, they are the best team! Brandon is so cute! Hope they stay loving even if they don't win! oh, btw, i'm so glad charla&mirna are out. Cheerz~ can't stand colin too... but kristie is ok...
2) Yaoi
Realli started liking yaoi after watching YNM. argh... then CLAMP's drugstore yaoi manga oso very nice to read. and now, gravitation! think it's kinda cute in a way... haha~ hentai! but not that i support real life version of yaoi. No, i don't think so. Cos real life pple can't be as pretty/good-looking as in manga.
3) Man U
Don't get me wrong... i'm not an ardent football fan. And i know Man U lost the premiership e last time. And i know Beckham's been out of Man U since long ago... but... think got influence by my bro and uncle and cousins. argh... and my mum :D
4) Li Jiawei
Yes, even if she lost but she did try. i believe she did try. can't blame her. that would be too unreasonable. Hope she can do better. really hope. got wedding ring already eh? ^^
5) Loki + Mayura
This is darn impt!!!!!!! Muz support LokixMayura wholeheartedly cos they are so kawaii together and so sweet and so compatible and so touching! I betcha they will confess they love each other. 100%! And the ending of the manga... will be so so sooo touching! God+Mortal. Hope Loki won't go back to shinkai. And NO, Loki WILL NOT die. If he does, i'm gonna harass Kinoshita-sensei to rewrite it!!!! But that wun happen la... she's not famous for twist and sad endings like Natsuki Takaya-sensei(FB). LokixMayura rules for eternity!!!!
[This is getting real long... shall try to end it with the next one. hmmm... muz add Support Zone to side bar... then can keep adding on. ^^ ]
6) My one and only oujisama... Souma Yuki.
oops... can't say one&only. i very hua xin one... and muz add surname cos gravitation oso got a chao goodlooking Yuki. eeps.
YES, I"M PRESIDENT OF P.R.I.N.C.E Yuki fanclub.
NO, my fanclub is not anything like the crazy fanclub(motoko's) in the anime. NO WAY. don't get the wrong idea. Here's a brief intro:
P.R.I.N.C.E Yuki fanclub was started in May 2004 by me.
President = Me
Vice-President = laysh
Member 1 = Juan
Member 2 = jye yi
(just enuff to rival Motoko's fanclub. heehee. wan more members thou. why nobody? why joyce don't join? siao...)
Rules: same rules apply like never to step into Yuki's house, never to touch his belongings, never to talk to him without the presence of at least one other member(exception: i can talk to yuki as and when i want.)
additional Rules: support Yuki in everything he does, respect his decision. encourage him to go after Tooru. (but if he thinks he doesn't like tooru in that way, so be it. thou i think he's still blur.) No need to support YukiRu entirely thou. cos i'm touched by KyouRu and its sweetness. No clinging on to Yuki. But, be there for Yuki when he's upset, when he's happy. And last but not least, PROTECT HIM FROM AKITO. that hentai! 'chi.
yare yare. wad a long entry. hee...
himitsu @ 10:10 PM.
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