Monday, April 25, 2005
haven't updated for quite a while... hmm... what happened during this past wk?
(think think think)
oh yeah... loved chatting about crushes with dawn and jin. so fun nya? ^^
And, I'm uber stressed for FM paper that's on this coming Wed. Fm as in financial management, not f.maths. VERY VERY VERY stressed 'cause I really wanna get an A for this subj. I mean, for mkting and acct, I just want a B. But FM i really want an A. I haven't decided what I want for biz stats... but I've only got 2 days to study for stats. (T_T) Ah... and Lit... I only want a C. I'm screwed for Lit.
Ok, so very stressed last night cos hv to study FM and Jap and Stats is bugging my mind. Almost cried. Everyday have to read 3 chapters of FM - i totally hate the bond and stock chapters. Can't rem la! All my mid-term tests were open-bk... now exam is close-bk. Sigh... then it was hard studying Jap cos it was quite late at night liao, and I really dunno if anything got into my head. I considered not going for Jap exam, cos I know if I don't do well for Jap, i'll get very depressed, but...
eventually, i went. it was quite easy la... ^^ finished it real fast. but i know i made a mistake. forgot to add a "na" and before that I'd reminded myself repeatedly that there's a "na" there. stupid.
but should be able to get above 90. if not i'll just go die. Lol~
feel like puking now. ate too much... (urgh...) no more weird dreams to share though. *sad*
himitsu @ 12:55 AM.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Ok, by now, most peeps should know: SCGS Band got a GOLD this yr! Yay! I'm honestly happy for them, cos well... it's the 1st gold the Band has ever gotten! ^^ We had one silver yrs ago, and then we were plagued with the "Curse of Bronze". I was dragged into the "Curse of Bronze". Then the last SYF they got silver, and now a Gold!
But then... part of it depends on luck too.
Anyway, my first exam paper took place yesterday. Marketing. Horrible. I sat down for just half hour then i started feeling hungry liao -_- Maybe because i only had mee tai mak for lunch. Then it got so boring i wanted to sleep. My answers were also very unproportionate with regards to the marks allocated. And i just had to STARE at the last question as if my eyes were playing a trick on me: it asked us to apply marketing principles when applying for a job we like. assume any job.
God. what kinda crap is that?! How to answer? Eventually i just forcefully twist all the principles to try fit. my answer was weird. Oh, and i was so pissed i wrote "Stupid Question!" next to the qns on the qns paper. Just had to vent my frustration. Lol~
Was slacking the whole night after i came home after the exam. (was raining so heavily at school) What did i do last night? Watch Loveless! Hee... then spent hours reading the RAW manga scans i got (RAW meaning it's in original jap) Volumes 3 to 5 k?! can u imagine? spent my time trying to decipher what they talking about. Understand some parts, don't understand some parts. But overall, I know what's going on. Proud of myself for being able to understand some parts. Urgh... but it was tough reading the long strings of japanese characters - hiragana, furigana, katakana, AND kanji. Though knowing Chinese helps in reading kanji, but japanese's kanji is kinda weird. i mean... like how "study" is not "du2 shu1" but it's "mian2 qiang3". Grr...
Next.
I had weird dreams the past 2 days. One was of me taking a lift in sch. The lift was a cylinder, just that the height was vey short. (so very short, but radius very large) Lotsa pple came in. I wanted to go up to the 1st storey, but somehow I didn't know that in the lift, besides all the buttons there were description of where the lift could go.... The lift actually goes out of sch! As in, it flies like a flying saucer out of sch to HDB flats and other designated places. Lol! I got a shock when i realized that and got off at a flat in Jurong area.
weird right?
second dream: i was working in a office, with laysh and sheane as colleagues. but i was slacking and searching stuff on Loveless, watching and reading Loveless on the computer instead. showed the first episode to laysh and sheane. i went back to work after that, then suddenly sheane burst out singing the opening theme of Loveless as beautifully as the original singer. was kinda jealous she could sing my fav song so well. haha! then i dreamt of lunch at hawker centre... fishball noodles. but dunno why i dreamt of sheane. not close to her at all.
my dreams are insane and total crap ne? ><
himitsu @ 11:49 PM.
Friday, April 15, 2005
I forgot to mention something earlier...
April 13th... 2 days ago... was Day of Silence/Silent Day...
And i didn't know. So i didn't managed to join in and keep silent for the day! Sob T_T
Day of Silent is a day where you keep silent to support minority groups like gays, les, bi, trans...
ARGH!!!! Though i'm not so inclined to support the trans part, i wanna support homo and bi!!!
Grr... and i talked a lot on the day. (CRIES)
shall rem next yr -_-
himitsu @ 3:24 AM.
ok... it's 1:05am. My first exam paper, Marketing, starts at 2:30pm. Eeks! Still have 12 hrs plus thou. But i've been slacking for almost whole of today. Haha >.<
anyway, not sure if this can really be found in the bible or christianity (I'm a free thinker!!!), but checked with Dawn - she said she never heard of - so ya. I watched a chinese movie on SCV ch62 last Saturday. Very sweet and touching and sad. The female lead was Ada Choi (Cai shao fen). Love her! She's so cute in the show on ch8 airing wkdays now...
ok so the show talk about lotsa christianity stuff (cos the main leads were christians and they were doctors), mainly about hope and miracles.
Then they kept repeating this:
(I can't remember the exact words, but it roughly goes like this)
"Rainbows actually come in full circles,
half on earth; the other half in heaven.
When you've completed the mission you were sent to do on Earth,
you'll then be sent to the other half of the rainbow
where you'll meet your loved one,
and never part for eternity."
Very beautiful lor. Plus the storyline is her husband died of leukemia, leaving her alone behind. For a moment, she lost faith in God. But when she looked around her and see what her husband had done for the patients and saw a rainbow, she pulled herself together. Later, she died due to SARS infection. (Yarh, story was set during that period) Then last part showed her meeting her husband at the other half of the rainbow.
Very beautiful and... (i agree with dawn-->) fairytale-like right?
Maybe that's why it's sad. because, well... fairytales don't come true. that's why they're known as *fairytales*. ^^
Actually, i remember crying while watching the show. When her husband died and she cried so much tt part... but me not exactly crying for the show... i was imagining what Shu will become if Yuki died... how Shu will try to continue living cos Yuki made him promise to do so... then i started crying like mad! Haha! Yes, yes, I'm crazy. Well, it's not like it's the first day you know me. Chey. Maybe I'll write a fanfic with that storyline after exams. But a fic without a living Yuki is like no fun! Hmm... and this sad plot reminds me of...
Laysh! I want to read "P.S. I Love You"! Get jq to hurry! After exams must pass to me k? Then i'll cry like mad again.
Talking about fanfic. I just read my reviews for the latest chapter i put up. SCARY!!! This person was threatening to kick my ass if I don't put up the next chapter soon. She's so scary!!! Haha! But i where got time? *whines* But I made some friends through writing fanfics. So nice!
... come to think of it, i was slacking last night too... watching Tsubasa and Bleach. ARGH!!!!
himitsu @ 1:00 AM.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Current music playing: Tsuki no Kaasu - Loveless
Take a look at this photo that I got from CLAMP's website:
SO CUTE RIGHT???!!!!!
Take note: Disclaimer: The above photo does not belong to me. It belongs to CLAMP(??)
Ok, why suddenly talk about CLAMP?
'Cause I'm kinda upset whenever it comes to them! Why can't they finish what they have at hand before jumping to new projects? It's not like I don't like their new projects like Tsubasa and xxxholic, but...!!! It's unfair to fans of those projects they put on hold for years because they prefer to concentrate on their latest new projects... (grumbles)
And honestly, out of ALL their projects, I love Gohou Drug the most. Of course even more than xxxholic or tsubasa or X or anything else! But the last volume of Gohou Drug that they actually published... it's in year 2003! Waaah!!! Sob!!! How can they do this to Gohou Drug fans?! I wished there was a way to ask them "WHY? Doushite?! Hidoi yo!" *SOB*
Oh if you noticed... new fanlisting added: Gohou Drug.
If I were to join fanlisting of all anime I like... it'll be chaos. Too many! So i only chose to join those I AM or WAS obsessed with. Those that left a deep impression. Feel like putting up a list of anime and manga I've watched and read. But the list will be kinda long ne? Then the tagboard will be pushed lower and lower. Hmm... >.<
But my current obsession still:
Loveless. Yaoi. Shounen-ai. Loveless. Loveless. Loveless. Yaoi. LOVELESS!!!!!!!!!
Oh to those out there. Don't try watching or reading Loveless without understanding its genre first. And *don't* ask *me*. But to all yaoi fans out there: though Loveless is shounen-ai/shota, Yun Kouga's art is too pretty to be missed.
Yes, laysh! Must show you the opening! I'm crazy over the opening video. God... so pwetty!
himitsu @ 1:23 AM.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
I'm so so so into Loveless now!!!! Obsessed!!! Have been using diff Loveless wallpapers recently! The art for the manga is sooooo beautiful, Ritsuka's so cute and good-looking. And the anime was just released yesterday in Japan! The screenshots all so pwetty!!! I'm totally head over heels in love with Loveless. Too bad the chinese version of the manga only have 2 vol. The rest not published in Chinese. Damn. Me considering buying the Jap version during kino's anniversary sale.
Just a pic:
Yes, Liang Court's Kino anniversary is coming! On the 16th of April, if i rem correctly.
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Ok ok, if i bored you with tt, sorry. I just had to let it out.
Next i'll go on to something FUNNIER. It isn't funny to me la, but i guess u would laugh, since u guys all so mean one. ><
Yesterday I went thru a downright terrifying BATTLE with a spider. The spider quite big k?! Not those kind small ones or those with thin thin legs one. It was big. Not humongous like tarantula (or wadeva), but it was big. bigger than a fifty cents coin.
It was in my toilet, on the mirror. I was so freak out! I called my dad fr help but he was onlt interested in cooking. (Grr... i was damn pissed) So I was left to deal with it alone cos my sis not home yet. I couldn't leave it alone cos it's my toilet ley! wad if it crawls out to the bedroom??!!!
So i took two separate newspaper and rolled it into 2 separate rolls. why two? cos in case the first time i throw the newspaper at the spider, it doesn't die. there's no way i'll go near it to retrieve the 1st roll of newspaper, so i needed a backup. But i didn't dare hit it. COuldn't pluck up enough courage to do it. I was damn scared. It's black, big and so many legs. I tried making lotsa noise and screaming so maybe my dad would come help. but he didn't. (downright pissed)
I considered using water to wash it down cos it was at the top left-hand corner of the mirror. very high up. but later wask down already it start crawling here and there how?! so cannot. throughout this planning of battle tactics, it moved a little and i was super freaked out. laysh happened to sms me so i smsed her back screaming my words at her asking for help. she ask me to use perfume, but to do tt, i need to go quite close to it cos perfume bottle small ley...
so i used pesticide. can spray from far. but of course didn't work. It started crawling down!!!!!!!!!!!! I screamed like mad and started crying liao. I WAS VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY SCARED.
i used the 1st roll of newspaper. throw it down hard onto it on the floor. tot it died so msg laysh to tell her i crying liao. but the next time i turned back, it was gone! FREAK ME OUT EVEN FURTHER. I couldn't lose it! who knows when it'll crawl out?! cannot! it must die.
so i use this long thing... u noe the plastic u use to wrap bks? it comes in rolls mah... so happened my sis kept the ending stick after u finish using the plastic. (Like toilet paper roll like tt?) I used it to move the 1st newspaper away and the floor cloth near it. There it was. still moving. I WAS TOO TERRIFIED. CRYING LIKE MAD. ALMOST GONNA GO CRAZY LIAO. so was quite pissed why it never die. i took the 2nd roll of newspaper and slam down hard onto it this time, making sure i kill it. It died.
But the whole ordeal left me crying like dunno wad.
Didn't clear the dead body. Asked my sis to do it when she came back. And she agreed with me tt it's big.
After tt got toilet phobia. I'm afraid of all creepy crawlies. It was a damn horrifying nightmare ordeal. Cried until i was so sleepy after tt.
Damn. Don't laugh so much k?! read my earlier entry if u haven't.
himitsu @ 11:14 PM.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
"You keep on making it rain.
I call you the rain maker,
but I love tasting your tears.
You drench me with this hopelessness
embedded in every part of my love.
I raise my hands to the sky like a crazy person
while people pass by me and whisper.
And yet, it's you that I'll never forget.
These feelings go nowhere.
They go to a person who no longer exists,
but deep inside of me.
That's the only place where I can carry you now."
hiding inside words.
By miyamoto yui
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Sigh. Why can't I write as beautifully as that? Miyamoto Yui is such a great fanfic author. Her fics are always quiet and deep. A serene beauty, that's what I'd call it. SOB (T_T)
SIgh. Exams are in 1 and 1/2 wks time and i'm still here, online! Damn. But i make sure i finish what i'm supposed to study everyday... which isn't much. I'm only concentrating on the first paper, Mkting. Cos my papers quite spread out, I'm only concentrating on 1 subj at a time. Like after Mkting there's 5 days for me to study Acct; after Acct there's a wk for me to study FM and Stats (since Stats only 2 days after Fm, hv to study both at same time. AT least do some Stats too).
Then after that I've got 4 days to Lit. Which means I"M GONNA DIE FOR LIT!!!! I haven't even finish reading all my novels! Die, die, die!!!! There's like 4 novels, but I'm skipping one. May read 2 only thou, depending on whether i hv the time. preparing for 3 of course safer. But I still hv the poems to do... everything on Romanticism. (Cries) I wanna pass ley! Wanna continue minoring ley! How?! Maybe I should read the novels at the same time I study for mkting. Ya... but wait! I hafta go library borrow the novels! Cos i didn't want to spend $ to buy them. Rather spend on my manga. Heeheeheehee...
Any comments on my study method? Like whether I shld really conc on 1 subj at a time? Tell me! Oshiete kudasai!
himitsu @ 1:55 PM.
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