Wednesday, September 29, 2004
as i've said, i'll try to curb my incessant(to others but not to me) anime/manga ramblings. but philosophical stuff like those in my previous entry (if u haven't read it, read it><) is subjective to inspiration and my feelings right then and there when typing. very hard!!! haha~ just wanted to add something i wanted to but forgot to say the last time... about disillusionment... i dunno if any of u know this, or if i even look like one to think this way... but ever since a few years back, i've started to believe that NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. reali quite strongly believe in this. nothing. absolutely nothing in this world lasts forever. relationships, love, fame, status, happiness, sadness etc etc anything u can think of, nothing lasts. they come, they go, they fade, they die, and something else new comes along.
tangerine: you can love or hate someone so deeply for a moment, but how long will it last? a few years down, the feeling starts to fade... who knows when it'll disappear? How do you hold on to that moment where love or happiness is at its peak?
yuki: baka. you're asking too many rhetorical qns...
tangerine: but really... as pple always say, time passes, things change. so what can you do? that's why we marvel at those rare still-as-romantic-as-ever old couples right? YUKI... you're a famous prize-winning romance novelist. so, enlighten me!
yuki: my stories all end tragically. what's the pt of asking me?
tangerine: this is kinda depressing. sometimes, this sappy line just pops out in my head, but the more i think about it, the more i believe it's true. and i'm the very sentimental and reminiscent type, so i'll get sadder, esp when happy events have passed me by. and there's this saying that tells us to look forward to tmr, or a new beginning... but don't they realised that this new tmr doesn't last too?
yuki: ...
tangerine: i hope what i'm saying doesn't cause you to go break up with shu-chan... pls don't!!! even believing in that, i still live like others... like there's nothing wrong. humans don't harp on negative beliefs cos well, they can't afford to if they wanna survive, and surviving is a basic human instinct. so they go into this self-delusional/self-deceiving/disillusioned state... or maybe it's just because there's such a tiny but powerful thing called hope?
yuki: you're babbling like that stupid brat. only difference is that u babble about philosophical stuff. similarity is that it's just as crappy and worthless talk, a waste of time.
tangerine: ok... great. am i talking nonsensical stuff here? i apologise for taking up your time. hmph! why not someone enlighten me?! T_T
himitsu @ 9:49 PM.
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